A dear friend who also has a challenging teacher for this role of mother (her mother) sent me this sticker today which I promptly put on my car. It reminds me of something another friend who is electing not to have children said to me once, "I don't know what all the hub bub is about children. It seems to me that there are other ways to achieve the same level of meaning or spiritual depth." She may be right. I haven't found it yet. Perhaps this bumper sticker sums it up. It isn't that there aren't other ways but motherhood, no matter your level of interest in growing, puts you on a fast and steep climb - confronting you with intensely deep opportunities to look at yourself if you choose to open the invite and consciously look. I am craving a community of moms who would put this bumper sticker on their car. I attempted to start this group but the goal wasn't quite what his bumper sticker espouses. For me, I feel like a lone wolf sometimes looking at motherhood this way. It is downright lonely and it sums up why I write this blog. I am lonely. There, I said it.
I am deeply immersed in this daily spiritual practice called motherhood exploring;
-what is the self
-how are boundaries defined
-what is power and how is it used and abused
-what is mortality
-what is passion
-what is connection and attunement
-how does my nervous system respond to connection and solitude
-what is "mommy guilt"
-how does our shame impact connection
-what is the legacy of patriarchy
-how do we reconcile the legacy of the mothering we received with the kind of mother we want to be
The list goes on.
Just a few thoughts...that swirl around. I do get off on this kind of thinking.
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